I wish that you'd just bite the bullet and make a move.
Rejection is always painful though, and this holds us all back.
I'm not going to pretend like I'm not scared.
I'm scared.
I wish that wishing made any difference in the world.
I gave up on it a long time ago.
Doesn't mean I don't want it to happen.
It just means that I am distancing myself from getting hurt.
I always do this.
It feels safer.
I'm not perfect.
We all want love and to be loved. The truth is that it is all around us all the time.
Our family loves us.
Our friends love us.
Our pets love us.
Our version of God loves us.
Strangers love us.
I love the idea of us.
Sometimes I give up on thinking there is a 'Jack' for me, or a 'Sid'.
Sometimes I give up on ever thinking I'll be happy.
Then I remember that happiness comes and goes. It's not ever a constant.
When it's here I'm awesome.
When it's gone I'm in agony.
I smile at all the bright lights of the city.
They're the only thing I see at night.
The stars seem too far away.
I'll dream about how good we could be.
And I'll never live up to how hard I dream.