I'm way to attached to you right now. It's insane.
I'm going insane.

Parents.
They are those amazing people that gave you life,
That brought you into this world.
They shouldn't be making you feel like this.
They should be empowering you,
Building you up to be everything you can be.
Looking out for you,
Wanting the best for you.
I'm sorry.

You know when you wish you could be somewhere else?
I wish I was somewhere else.
I know if I was with him he wouldn't let me out of his arms.

Tuesday. I am both excited and dreading for Tuesday.
6 months.
I think I've changed.
I might have found someone else.
You might have changed.
I don't know about you anymore.

I don't sleep anymore.
We talk til the sunrises.
About everything and about nothing.
You make my head spin.
I mentioned being cold. You promised that you'd hold me in your arms until I fell asleep.
My heart felt like it was going to beat right out of my chest.
I can see myself falling in love with you.
So quickly.
So hard.
I just don't want to get hurt. I don't want to hurt anymore.

everytime I hear that noise my heart melts a little.
I get butterflies.
I get nervous.
I smile.
I don't think this means as much to you.
I don't think you even really want this.
I think you're just having fun.
I want to let go of everything and have fun.

Almost in love.

Pretty sure you have me hooked so bad right now. It's only been three days. Fuck.

It's something like 21 days.
What the fucking fuck?
It felt like yesterday you left, with a shit goodbye and a whole lot of sad.
Now you're coming back and I don't know what to think.
Am I the same?
Are we the same?
Will it pick up again?
Or am I just empoying wishful thinking?
I hate complicated.

When you see my face,
I honestly hope it gives you hell.
I have to let you go.
Everytime I see your name my heart,
It skips a beat.
I need to let you go.
I want to move on.
You were never the one.
To you,
I was an option.
I was an easy target.
I was nothing.
To me,
You were the greatest possibility I could have ever imagined.
All I did was imagine.

So upset right now.
Hurt in more ways than one.
Everything is getting me down.
I can't, won't, don't, want to speak to you.
Just leave me alone.
I need a massive out right now.
I won't get one though.
I'm going to keep to myself.
I'm going to avoid.
Everything.

I'm not okay.
I'm falling back into bad habbits.
I'm feeling like the old.
I don't want it.
I'm going to try.
I'm getting on the front foot.

I don't know why.
I don't understand.
It doesn't make sense to me.
If this is the ONLY way you can see yourself being happy,
Then tell me,
Tell me now and I will walk away.
I will leave you be.
I know it won't make you happy.
Which is why all I am getting is silence.