Here's to new beginnings and being nothing like I imagined.
Better than before, not sure about tomorrow.

Today was a dream,
Tomorrow you won't mean a thing.
I'm letting you go.

I honestly think I could have fallen for you.
Fallen for you harder.
I think we would have been amazing.
It was so effortless to be myself around you.
I could have, should have,
honestly do,
love you.

The silence is killing me,
but at the moment music feels like it is making it worse.
Every song has a meaning that just brings me back down.
It's all about love.
It's all about hurt.
I don't think deleting you from my life will make this any easier,
but talking to you will probably just make it worse.
I need a distraction. Bad.

I want to travel the world.
Pack everything up and go somewhere new.
I don't want to so it alone,
But I don't think there is anyone I know that I want to share it with.
It's like I'm a half of something.
Food for thought.

Friends demanding attention is not an endearing quality.
I'm all for the needing someone,
but every night is a bit excessive.
I need my own time too.
I need time to think.
I just want to get my head screwed on right so I can function.
I need some answers to thing that just won't move fast enough.
Waiting for mail is overrated.
Waiting for someone to make up their mind is like watching a clock tick.
Things need to move.

Don't forget. I never said it wouldn't hurt. Ever.

I'm feeling a little renewed.
I've made some good changes in my life.
Both physically and mentally.
I think I am ready for "the next stage" or whatever.
I don't think I could feel any more ready.
I'm going to take it as it comes and hope for the best.
After all, I can't control anything.
I should know better sometimes.
It always starts and ends in the same place.
The middle is always the blurr.
I love the laughs we all share, even if they can be a little forceful.
Tell me you love me.
It's what I want (need) to hear.
I'll move on in my own good time.
You can't rush a master piece.
Life is what you make it.
It is every minute that ticks by.
Every second you count down.
I think I am doing okay.
At least for today.

And Yes, I want this to work out.
Yes, I want to shut my eyes, click my heels and make it happen.
I want I want I want I want I want I want
Another chance at life.
Another chance to live.
Another time to love.
Another moment to laugh.
I want to spend some time with you.

"From Now On We Are Enemies" -Fall Out Boy

'I just want to be better than your head's only medicine'
A downward spiral just a pirouette
Getting worse til there's nothing left
What good comes of something when I'm just the ghost of nothing?
'I'm just the man on the balcony singing':
"Nobody will ever remember me,"
Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees
(for a)
Lunatic of a god or a god of a lunatic?
Oh, their faces are dancing
They're dancing til
Til they can't stand it
A composer but never composed
Singing the symphonies of the overdosed
A composer but never composed
'Singing':
"I only want what I can't have"
'Heralded as a king before I had a birthday
With double digits
Fit the crown to my head but I was only a kid'
'I'm just the man on the balcony singing':
"Nobody will ever remember me,"
Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees
(for a)
Lunatic of a god or a god of a lunatic?
Oh, their faces are dancing
They're dancing til
Til they can't stand it
A composer but never composed
Singing the symphonies of the overdosed
A composer but never composed
'Singing':
"I only want what I can't have"
'I just want to be better than your head's only medicine'
'I'm just the man on the balcony singing':
"Nobody will ever remember me,"
Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees
(for a)
Lunatic of a god or a god of a lunatic?
Oh, their faces are dancing
They're dancing til
Til they can't stand it
A composer but never composed
Singing the symphonies of the overdosed
A composer but never composed
'Singing'
"I only want what I can't have"

everything happens for a reason
i have to keep telling myself that
i might not see it now
but there is a reason that it happened
life continues even when you want it to stop
the world turns
people laugh
people cry
we love
we hurt
it just keeps going
nothing lasts forever
but nothing ever really ends
memories are eternal