Of course this played when I thought of you, of us.
It was only fitting to be running through my head.
It pays to dwell on the past,
To think what could have been and be reminded of what was.
One day nothing will be more than a memory.

"This drama sat shot gun
My eyes rained like autumn
Only the glove box knows
How the story goes

Now that this bandage is broken and the cuts left in open
I'll tell you just one thing this wasn't worth the sting"

"On a mission to gain your permission"

"Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It’s the wrong time
For somebody new
It’s a small crime
And I’ve got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright?
If you don’t shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It’s the wrong time
She’s pulling me through
It’s a small crime
And I’ve got no excuse"

-Damien Rice, 9 Crimes

It was more than worth it. Long drives in the car always pay off when you know the other end will be fun. Sometimes I wonder if we can ever go back.

I keep feeling like I am clawing my way forward,
but not really getting anywhere.
Sometimes it feels like everything is stacked up against me,
but I keep going.
One day I'll be there,
and I'll look back and know I deserve it.

"Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me

I hang my head from sorrow
State of humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

'Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am, yes she is
Still when I'm a mess, I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes, I'm a Superwoman"
-Alicia Keys

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
-Oscar Wilde

it's been a long time coming
but it's all setting in
how does it rain when there are blue skies?
i'm watching the shadows dance
and the skies cry
sometimes i wish i believed all the lies
sometimes i wish i believed in it all
i've never wished harder for all my wishes to come true.

It's pouring with rain outside.
Should I take it as a sign?

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend." -William Blake

"They don’t even know what it is to be a fan. Y’know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band, so much that it hurts"
-Almost Famous

It's kind of hot today. It's weird seeing that it has been so cold lately and is now so hot.
I feel so tired, and not the sleepy kind of tired, the exhausted kind of tired.
I think I need to get back to writing, I've got the urge.