"On a mission to gain your permission"

"Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It’s the wrong time
For somebody new
It’s a small crime
And I’ve got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright?
If you don’t shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It’s the wrong time
She’s pulling me through
It’s a small crime
And I’ve got no excuse"

-Damien Rice, 9 Crimes

It was more than worth it. Long drives in the car always pay off when you know the other end will be fun. Sometimes I wonder if we can ever go back.

I keep feeling like I am clawing my way forward,
but not really getting anywhere.
Sometimes it feels like everything is stacked up against me,
but I keep going.
One day I'll be there,
and I'll look back and know I deserve it.

"Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me

I hang my head from sorrow
State of humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

'Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am, yes she is
Still when I'm a mess, I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes, I'm a Superwoman"
-Alicia Keys

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
-Oscar Wilde

it's been a long time coming
but it's all setting in
how does it rain when there are blue skies?
i'm watching the shadows dance
and the skies cry
sometimes i wish i believed all the lies
sometimes i wish i believed in it all
i've never wished harder for all my wishes to come true.

It's pouring with rain outside.
Should I take it as a sign?

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend." -William Blake

"They don’t even know what it is to be a fan. Y’know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band, so much that it hurts"
-Almost Famous

It's kind of hot today. It's weird seeing that it has been so cold lately and is now so hot.
I feel so tired, and not the sleepy kind of tired, the exhausted kind of tired.
I think I need to get back to writing, I've got the urge.